The Crashing Dream

God granted me another dream a few months after the pickup dream. My daughter, my son, and I were in a four door car driving on a two lane highway up a mountain. There was no shoulder on the highway, and the road was very steep and surprisingly straight. There was no snow on the mountain. It was covered in rocks, gravel, mountain flowers, and grass. The road was paved. As I drove, with my children in the backseat, we were going about 60 miles per hour when I quickly reached what looked like the peak of the mountain. As I cruised to the top I got excited and said,

Oooh kids, this is going to be a steep one!

However, when we crested the top it was actually a vertical cliff! The road was gone, the mountain was gone, only a steep vertical drop into the ocean! The ocean was the most beautiful, translucent, tropical blue you could imagine. The waves beat upon the rocks at the bottom of the cliffs causing large white billows of water misting and roaring. My first thoughts were, holy cow, there’s no more road and, what a beautiful way to go! I felt no fear, but only the exhilaration and butterflies one might expect in a free fall. I took hold of my kids’ hands and said,

Okay, it’s our turn to cross over! Let’s pray!

I prayed for God to forgive us and to quickly bring us into His presence. When we hit the water I was still not afraid. I remember being thrown forward and losing my grip on my children’s hands. I remember seeing the windshield very cracked but not broken, and I remember feeling the car start to take in water. Then I woke up. I was still not afraid, just exhilarated. I was calm and peaceful, but had jitters like I just got off of a roller coaster. I said,

God, we’re going to have to work on these messages. Send me an e-mail or something!

According to the late pastor John Paul Jackson, the vehicle was my calling. The ascent up the mountain was God bringing me higher spiritually, and water represents the Holy Spirit. Blue tends to symbolize revelation, and a windshield represents one’s ability to see clearly. I believe God showed me he has a calling for me that will bring me closer to Him. However, I also believe he is presenting a choice to me. In the pickup dream I was going higher with him, but had to let go of something to continue that ascent. In this dream I am travelling higher with God, but for some reason the journey stops. I will still be immersed in his Holy Spirit, and very much loved by my Father. Yet, my vision will be obstructed and my calling will be destroyed. Which do I choose?

In his great mercy and love, our heavenly Father always presents us a choice. He wants us to love him because we want to love him, not because we have to. He wants us to obey him because we love and respect him, not because we have to obey him. This concept is clear in the Scriptures when Moses tells the Hebrews in Deuteronomy 30:19,

This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live…

Also, in Joshua 24:15, Joshua tells the Israelites to choose whom they will serve. Our Lord is a true gentleman. He would never be so harsh as to force himself on us. So we always have a choice. What do you choose?

Now fear the Lord and serve him with all faithfulness. Throw away the gods your ancestors worshiped beyond the Euphrates River and in Egypt, and serve the Lord. But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.

Joshua 24:15